Date: 2/826
Mood: Depressed
Song OTD: Overdose Casino-Alex Peipman
Trying my best
Long time no see! Sorry, first week of college had a mark on me. Overall I like my classes, and the job hunt is somewhat successful. I just need to have financial security, and sooon. Been taking my meds more, that's good. I'd say my favorite class so far has been Drawing 2, and my only complaint is that all my class days end at lik 6 pm in total. But like other than that it's pretty nice, I have every Friday off. Maybe I'll keep writing journal entries to every Friday...I've a job interveiw on Wednesday, here's hoping that goes well. If only my classes didn't require me to buy pretty expensive materials....
Date: 1/28/26
Mood: Happu
Song OTD: Creep-Radiohead
Nose to grind
Now back in Oshkosh! The dorm's been nice, and it's good to be back in town. I also got the apartment I applied for, so that solves staying for the summer. Might stay there for the fall semester, too, if it ends up being cheaper. It's about a few days until classes start, and I'm looking forward to the semester. I feel hopeful for the future, but I have to get a job and put my nose to the grindstone soon. It'll be painful, but I can put it through if it means that I'll thrive eventually. As Radiohead says, I don't care if it hurts, I want control. Sorry, didn't mean to get dark there. Overall, I'm hopeful. The clothes from Depop and a few other things came in, and they're really great. For the first time in a while I feel good, structured.
Date: 1/25/26
Mood: Hetic
Song OTD: I Don't Want To See Tommorrow-Nat King Cole
Lots ahead
Sorry for no entires, today was the first interesting day in a whiiile. I applied to a apartment to stay in during the summer, and today I had to go pick up insulin. It was $60 which sucked absolute ass. I went with my friend Zoey to go get it though, so that made it a much more pleasant experience to say the least. At this point I'm looking forward to going back to dorms...It should be fun, I'm already packed. Overall I feel pretty stacked with shit to do and shit, but I mean this next semester should be pretty nice, I look forward to it. I bought some clothes on Depop too, and I've been reading The Long Walk.
Date: 1/22/26
Mood: Content
Song OTD: BOTHERED!-Femtanyl
Great day
I slept in until about 11 today, but I didn't mind that. I ended up listening to a lot of music, which was nice. I also got a lot done, finishing up two commissions and mentally preparing for the internship meeting tommorrow. I ended up hanging out with my friend, That was a lot of fun! We went to the East Towne Mall, which I don't usually go to. I picked up some new books-specifically American Psycho, the first Tokyo Ghoul volume, and The Long Walk. I need to read more, so here's hoping I get to them. I've been craving sweet drinks lately, I hope I can get the disposable income to have them soon. Overall I think things are looking up.
Date: 1/21/26
Mood: Hopeful
Song OTD: Rock the House-Gorillaz
Better day
Today, despite being snowed in, was generally a pretty good day. My Mp3 player came in, and that was both fun and easy to set up-it's a Innoaisis y1, and I definatively reccomend it. Can't wait to take it out of the house, hopefully the cold won't effect it too much...I also might have copped a unpaid internship doing book covers, I have a meeting this Friday to discuss it. It might also be because I took my meds last night, but I generally feel less doom-and-gloom than I did. I go back to campus in about five or so days. I also called my dad, that went better than I thought. It's always good to talk to him.
Date: 1/20/26
Mood: Got something done
Song OTD: Twice or it's Luck-Alex Peipman
Miserable x3
I woke up at a regular time, and was able to get out of the house finally. I got a $20 ticket for parking on the wrong side of the road. I tried to get the cash my dad gave me deposited, but I can't do it on my own, it seems. I feel like my life isn't going anywhere and I'm majorly stunted in comparison to everyone I know. Sorry. I got gas as well, then went home and generally fucked around.
Date: 1/19/26
Mood: Always so tired
Song OTD: Overdose Casino-Alex Peipman
Miserable x2
I hate these days. It's been 3 days since I left the house because of this fucking weather. I don't care how cold it is tommorrow, I'm going out. I have to do *something* or else I'll go bonkers. Part of me thinks I already have. I go back to campus next week, and the gallery I display at will be holding a gallery walk for me in October-so looks like I can't take a gap semester after all. I'll have to live with it, paying for a semester I don't even want to take. Life has been sucking ass recently.
Date: 1/16/26
Mood: Tired again
Song OTD: Main Villian-Taitoki
Miserable
Boring day. I woke up at 2pm and spent most the day driving-to pick up both charging cables/aux cords and a secret thing. I was gonna go to the club, but the friend I was going to go with ended up not going, so I didn't. I kind of regret that. It would have been fun to go, even alone, but too late now...Technically I'm writing on the 17th, but who gives a fuck. Sorry I'm not in a very good mood, I feel uncertain about the future again. Looking at Facebook Marketplace is very fun, at least. I don't know. I'm tired of living like this. Maybe I just need my meds.
Date: 1/15/26
Mood: Tired
Song OTD: Ghost-Machine Girl
Makeup day
Sorry for no entry yesterday, I was busy. But I had a great day both yesterday and today! Today, I woke up suuuper early to pick up a camera from Facebook Marketplace, and I feel I majorly lucked out on it. It has memory and everything, works perfectly and was only $18! Then I went to breakfast with Mimi and Zoey, which was really nice. Unfortunately after all of that I was pretty tired, but still went to the mall later. I picked up some blindboxes and a Spiderman mug I had a few years ago but left behind on moving out, so it'll be really nice to have it again. I went to the Cheesecake Factory and treated myself to some new stuff I haven't gotten before-the chili shrimp and that crab rice, both of whicj were very good. The crab was a little excessively salty, but I'm not complaining. I was really tired after, which means it's filling. Then I packed some orders and then promptly took a looong nap. It's about a week until I have to go back to dorms, so I'll be savoring this time...
Date: 1/13/26
Mood: Content
Song OTD: NASTYWERKK-Femtanyl
Decent day x2
Today was a pretty uneven day, but nontheless a pretty nice one. I had almost a all-nighter, but stopped to get about 4 hours of sleep. When I got up, I went to Monroe street primarily to go to the Trader Joe's there. I hadn't been to one in a while, so it was pleasant to see what I'd consider a familiar sight, especially these days. I got some cheese and a Greek pastry wheel, which I had for dinner later. There was also a nice record store and a bookstore-the latter of which I bought a book at, HORRORSTÖR. I'm hoping it'll be good, I need to read more. Then I had a pretty nice lunch at a little restraint, they had a pretty nice deal so I got some vegetable tempura and noodles. Then I went home and relaxed, later taking a bath after dinner. I also got a Facebook account purely to use Marketplace, which I've been finding pretty fun. Haven't bought anything yet, but I see some pretty neat stuff for good prices. Thing is like half the stuff's in like Chicago...
Date: 1/12/26
Mood: Unsure
Song OTD: Terrible Lie-NIN
Decent day
Today was a pretty alright day. I woke up at about noon, and I was originally planning on going to a pawn shop, but my friend Zoey called me and asked me if I could bring some cough medicine to her, and I was wanting to go downtown anywho, so I did. I bought a new bag-charm and got some milk tea, and some new bath stuff including some new perfume that smells pretty pungent, but still pretty nice. Overall it was a nice day, and I finally booked a nail appointment for Feb. 7th or so. I can't wait, I've been needing a good refresh on my nails for a while now. It's the only salon I really trust, but it's up in Oshkosh so I haven't been able to go to it...Overall I feel very unsure about the future. I'm trying to account for it, but these rough patches are some of the most painful parts of life.
Date: 1/11/26
Mood: Decent
Song OTD: 9 Lives-Self
Good daaaaay
Sorry for no entry yesterday, nothing happened but Christmas Bingo, which was fine but I'd rather not talk about it. I keep having weird dreams, but they could be worse for sure. I woke up at about noon and kept downloading songs for my upcoming innoiasis y1, which I look forward to greatly. You don't think about how many songs you have until you have to download them all one by one....Then, I went to the mall because the pawn shop I originally wanted to go to was closed, and got some blind boxes. I ate at the Cheesecake Factory there, my usual and some extra riccotta toast. It was delicious, but the drink I got was unexpectedly $12, which they did not list on the menu. Really dickish of them to not do that, like it's good but for that much put some alcahol in it. Which I got it *because* it was non-alcaholic, because I had to drive, but you get my point. I got the characters I wanted in the blindboxes, so I'm pretty happy with that. So far I've about half the songs I need downloaded, especially after just now.
Date: 1/9/26
Mood: Accomplished
Song OTD: One Way Or Another-Blondie
Another great day!
I woke up at around 10 am today, which is good. I then went to brunch with Mimi and her friend Anna, which was quite fun. The food was delicious-especially a éclair I had, and a lemon tart that I bought and enjoyed later. Then we all went to Goodwill, and I bought some lovely Precious Moments figures and a Calvin and Hobbes tresuary (only 50 cents as well!)! Then, I came home and had a nap. I also ordered a Ipod dupe that seems pretty promising, I'll have to make a day of putting all my music on it lol. Overall today was a good day, I was fairly productive despite a large nap I had and I feel like this is the start of a good streak. Maybe I'll get another tattoo soon...
Date: 1/8/26
Mood: Happy
Song OTD: Get Ur Freak On-Missy Elliot
Great day!
Didn't sleep in until 4 PM today! Woke up at about noon, shipped out some Etsy orders, and finally set to try to get my job back at a different location-and it's looking very promising. Then I went home and relaxed, played a little Yakuza, then watched Death Becomes Her. Very excellent movie, 5/5. I should link my Letterboxd sometime...Maybe I will, if I can figure out the navigation thing. Bad thing today was that another one of my nails broke, but honestly I was expecting thaaaat. I also saw a Ipod dupe I really want, if I still want it in a few days I'll get it on a pay in 4 plan. Paypal's my best friend for that, lol. Overall today's been a really good day and I hope I have more like it. Oh yeah, I also played the 'bad end' for Yiika's route out of curiosity. As expected, it was extremely unpleasant. I do want to learn how to render gore like how these CGs do, though.
Date: 1/7/26
Mood: Tired
Song OTD: Halo-Depeche Mode
Got nothing done again
I slept until 4 pm today. But I did get some Etsy orders packed, which was very good. I don't know why I've been sleeping so much, but it really sucks to be wasting the days like this. Tommorrow I'll definatively try to get a job for the rest of the month. I need the money, and commissions aren't covering it. I think it's my period that's been screwing me up so much. Tonight I'm gonna take a nice bath and try to go to bed early, that might help. People should just give me money, lol. I'm literally nice.
Date: 1/6/26
Mood: Tired
Song OTD: Shampain-Marina
Got nothing done
Well, I did literally nothing today but sleep. I did have some pretty great dreams, but I can't remember them now. Oh well. Anywho, I started this journal so that I could remember the days better, and even though this probably isn't a day worth remembering I'm still recording it. I gotta work on my garage kits soon...Also I think I lost my earbuds. That sucks ass. So I'll either have to find them somehow, they might be in my car, or get some new ones which honestly I should probably do. Oh yeah, I also bought some nice hairclips from a friend too. I've got some packages coming that I'm looking forward to. Hopefully tommorrow will be a better and more productive day.
Date: 1/5/26
Mood: Tired
Song OTD: Everything is romantic-Charli xcx
Got stuff done
Today wasn't very interesting. I got up late, and dedicded to run some errands-particularly, shipping out those Etsy orders. After that, I went to Miachels and got some stuff-like some Microns. I need to get back into making art, both digitally and traditionally. I feel like I've really fallen off, everyone's making it big and doing big things and essentially I've been left behind. Which is my fault, I know, but still a little bit soul-crushing. Anywho, I'm going on a date with my girlfriend tommorrow! We're going to a restraunt, which we haven't done in a while. Very much looking forward to it. Oh yeah, I also went to World Market. It was pretty good there, I got some ginger cookies to keep in my car and some shortbread ones too.
Date: 1/4/26
Mood: Accomplished
Song OTD: Death A.M-Whitey
A good day
I thought today was going to be a rather boring day. I read some Astro Boy and had a breakfast I've been obsessed with-literally just toast and eggs. I don't know what it is about it, but I've been loving the combination. Also, last night I finished Yiika's route in Gore Screaming Show. I like her a lot as a character, and I'm glad I got the happy ending for her route-she deserves a lot of good things in the world. I'll have to decide what route to do next. However, there were like three parts where I thought it was going to end but it didn't, but there was a really good gore sequence in one of them (in which a illusion of Kiika gets eaten from the head down) so I don't mind that. Anywho, I went to a different mall from usual, and they had some really primo stuff there-there was one of those 'anime stores' but it actually had some good stuff. There was a Higurashi swimsuit figure I liked, but I knew better than to buy it...Sigh. I lifted some Amazing Digital Circus minis and some keychains, and got a really good boba. Then, I went home and packed some Etsy orders, I'll send those out tommorrow. I did have to order more bubble mailers.
I don't know what I'll do tommorrow. Maybe I'll go try to find a job.
Date: 1/3/26
Mood: Unaccomplished
Song OTD: Southbound-Artemas
Lazy day
Didn't do much today. Slept in until about 2 pm, which I'm not happy about. I wish I'd done more today-I did watch Utena with some friends, and didn't understand the episodes well. It was the end of the Black Rose arc, and the one with all the weird time stuff. I mean, I got some of it, but definatively not *all* of it, you know. My mother in law also gave me a late Christmas gift in the form of some Juicy Couture lip glosses, which I'm pretty happy about. I wish I had more money, but I still don't have a job and I can't ship out my Etsy orders until the stuff gets here, and I hope it gets here too. What should I do tommorrow? I definatively don't want to just sit around all day.
Date: 1/2/26
Mood: Content
Song OTD: Lifeforce 2-Machine Girl
Kind of blah
Today was kind of a boring day. I woke up early and did some errands-highlight of which being going to Plato's Closet. There was a lot of stuff I liked there, and being on a budget I just got a shirt, but it was a nice shirt. There was a Juicy bag I liked, but it was too small and $16...Sigh. Then I went home and finished a commission, then slept and tried setting up a new page for my website, which I couldn't get to work unfortunately. Will have to ask my friend Mars to help with that. Also ended up solidifying some details of a Chicago trip I'm going on, which is in less than two weeks!!! That'll be so fun. Oh yes, I got gas today as well. It was cheaper than I thought it would be.
I need to meet more people, both online and offline. I feel like I don't know many people and it kind of bums me out. My parents always said keeping busy staves away depression, and I haven't been keeping busy enough lately.
Date: 1/1/26
Mood: Tired
Song OTD: The Fonz-Smash Mouth
What a start
Good lord what a day. The party went great-the host was lovely and I had a wonderful time with my friends. I wish I hadn't been so awkward, but what can you do. I got home at about 6 am sans car because NO way I was driving in my condition and promptly slept until about 2-3 PM, lol. I did have a brief arguement with my girlfriend about the road conditions, which ended up being fine, spoiler. Then I went and got my car, and I think that tommorrow I'm gonna get gas then go to Plato's Closet and see about getting a new shirt or something. Or I'll also go to the little nerd store nearby and get me a new CD. That would be good. Overall, I think the new year is off to a good start.
I don't have many resolutions, but one of them is to get out of the house more, I have to or else I'll go stir-crazy. I also need to get a job soon.
Date: 12/31/25
Mood: Excited and content
Song OTD: Walkin’ On The Sun-Smash Mouth
^u^
Today’s been a good last day of the year. I woke up early to go to Zoey’s, then because she needed to sleep more I slept some more myself. We spent a few hours relaxing-her playing Bloodborne, and me reading ‘Are You My Mother’ by Alison Bechdel. Very cerebral book, I understood only some parts of it-especially in relation to my own mother. I’m writing this about a hour before we go to the party, I bought some champange for it and it seems like it’ll be a grand time-although I’m still scared that my lack of social proclivities will not do me much good.
The new year is a terrifying prospect. I hope only that it goes well.
Date: 12/30/25
Mood: Feelin Decent
Song OTD: Everybody-Basement Jaxx
Pretty productive day
Today I slept in a lot, which I'm not the happiest with. Until noon or so? Or 1pm. I've been sleeping a lot lately. Maybe for the New Year I need to change that...Anywho after a while I did my laundry and then went to the mall, where I got some new stuff, and a Von Dutch hat. Then, I went to get my nails done-they'd really grown out, and the place I went to was pretty decent but not as good as my usual salon. A little pricer than my usual salon, too...But they did a good job and it'll last so I'm not complaining. Then I went and had some korean food which was Really good.
Tommorrow I'm going to my friend Zoey's house for a New Year's party. I know that's gonna be really fun. Ugh, reminder that I need to catch up on Utena before the weekend.